THE CIRCLE OF TRUST

Hmmm…was thinking what I should write today. Searching for a good topic is not an easy thing to do… ahah… maybe I should talk about TRUST. YESSSSS…. THAT WILL BE MY TOPIC OF THE DAY.

I’m a person that easily gives trust to people. Even though, sometime we can judge people from the 1st 5 minutes we met them but sometimes I feel that it’s unfair to make a conclusion of what kind of person they are, when we don’t know them personally. Usually, I give them chance to proof me that whatever judgment that I have made towards them are wrong. That’s Good point and also my Weakness point. Whenever, the trusted person betray me, hurt me… it leave a GREAT SCAR in my heart which usually I won’t show immediately. If I can still swallow the pain, I will swallow but until to the stage that I couldn’t tolerate, then, sorry to say, that will be the last time.

Sometimes, I’m wondering myself, why all this must happen to me? It’s not the 1st time I had this type of experiences but why I kept letting people to hurt my feelings? I totally have no idea to answer this question myself. BUT, I do believe that everything happen in our life is for a reason. The reason which only ALLAH know and had plan for us. HE tested us with something that He knows that we can handle it if we deal it correctly. HE’s not trying to torture us or make our life misery. HE wants to see how strong we are in handling such matters because HE wants to reward us with something else which is far greater than whatever we have lost. That’s how HE shows us how much HE loves us…

HE gives us so many things in our lives, yet, most of the time we always forgotten to look up there to say, ALHAMDULILLAH (THANK YOU ALLAH)...


P/S: while I was searching what I should write, I found this.... and somehow it is reflecting me...

She Has Secrets You'll Never Know Or Understand,
She Appears So Strong On The Outside,
But On The Inside Her World Is Spinning Upside Down.
She's Smiling And Standing Tall 2 The Outta World,
She’s Crying And Breaking Down In Her Inner World.

She Appears So Happy 2 Her Mates,
But Alone, She Shares Her Tears With Her Pillow.
She Knows Not 2 Get Her Hopes Up,
As They Always Come Crashing Down.
She’s Heard It All Before & Felt It All.
She’s Experienced More Then Her Fair Share.
1 Touch, & She'll Flinch
1 Harsh, Word & She'll Cry
1 Bad Moment, & She'll Break Down

She Trusts No1, Because The People She Has, Hurt Her & Leave Her 2 Pick Up The Pieces
She Believes No1, Because The People She Has, Lie & Betray Her.
So For Now She'll Keep 2 Herself & Pretend Everything Is Fine, When Everything Is Wrong

I Know This Girl, Because This Girl...
Is Me.

- Leiysh

IF ONLY

Last night I watched this movie on YouTube… it talked about love and appreciation. It talked about express your feelings to your love one while you can... before it’s too late. BUT, even after you have expressing those feeling, what’s the meaning when your love one no longer with you to share and care. OMG…. I cried so much last while watching it until I’m wheeze.  It would be a devastated moment in my life if it happens to me. I don’t want that to happen to me… but how could I? That is the fact of life… every living will die one fine day. We just don’t know the exact time, the exact date and the exact place for it to take place.

 I love you and you love me just isn’t enough. It takes more than that to appreciate each other. Sometimes, it need sacrifice… sometimes, it need to courage to do so… everything happen for a purpose. Sometimes, can’t be seen by the naked eyes. Sometimes, even it in front of the eyes, it just passed by without we even realised it. ITS HAPPEN… mostly, we only realised when something had happen… then we tend to regret, thinking we should have do this… should have do that… and it’s too LATE.

So, need to learn to appreciate each other more… and listen to this song…
http://www.4shared.com/mp3/qhAtV766/Bryan_Adams_-_When_You_Love_So.html

p/s: I Love You and always do... Do You...???

Alhamdulillahirabbilalamin…

Today, I have finished reading chapter 3 of Al-Qurannul Kareem. The last time I read the Quran was when I’m in primary school… which about more than 20 years ago. Allahuakbar. Even though, at the beginning I’m struggling, but Alhamdulillah, I managed to finish the 3 chapters. So, another 27 chapters more to go… Insha’Allah. I have set goals for this year Ramadan and also will attend an Arabic class for better understanding.


P/S:It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.

MY TEARS...

TEARS ARE HOW MY HEART SPEAK WHEN MY LIPS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I’VE BEEN HURT

IF only you could understand me...

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